Holiday time...~~

hohoho...
finally i done my sem 2 first small exam ady...
i dunno why...i like sem 2 more than sem 1...
maybe it is more easier than sem 1 bah...
my sem 1's result....haizzzz......sadness case...
i need to retake two subjects...the most difficult and the most crazy subjects...
well...i think i need do it harder and harder in this year....

fine...after our exam is holiday time..happy...
but i need do my pa pbs because of the stupid thief!!!!
but after this case...i can know who is my real friend around me....
first...i need say thank you to our 38 po...mii mii hiew~haha
i am very grateful and touching when she done the everything for me...
she copy all her friends' work and her work for me and give me for a reference...
besides...she always care about my status...
but one time i got a shock from her and i gave a bad modal to her in front of many friend of us...
actually i didnt want be like that willingly...
because i get a shock when she ask my about the thing in front of many friends of us...
she can ask me privately...i dont have any psychological preparation...especially when faced a lot of friends in front of me...
but i also very appreciate to her...thank you and love you forever lah..muackzzz....
okay...turn to the main point in this diary...
i was very happy after our exam...because after our exam we all crazy in the karaoke time..
3hours....my god....tired but happy...
haha....especially the sweet potato...arh!!!!
she sang 'the fox' unexpectedly!!! ohh gosh...her crazy fox sound...=.= plus her dance...
but...i enjoyed and felt natural because she can acting like that in front of us...hahahaha
 hu~this is the first happy thing that i want to share...
also got another thing...that is my math's mark!!haha...
i get 68%hohoho....hahahaha....thank you to our math's teacher...
although she is strict and always let us scared her..but all of us can know that she is because of us..
she is a responbility and caring teacher....
well....happy things are sharing done...
after exam...no need study...so we make a group to chit chat...
group member were en ai,siew ying,mii mii hiew and me..
haizz....in the beginning..their topic was about me..my body,my face,my body's flavor,my hand...
=.= the siew ying and the mii mii hiew...my body was drained by them and my face..
but i enjoyed it too..haha...
okay...all topics were sharing out..no more thing can say ady...
so....mii mii hiew say want to ask me some privacy question...
actually i can guess what she want to ask ady...but i think that was impossible...
because i thought that she wont know that..but...
she really ask the question... damn...
i thought i can answer it well...but..i overestimate myself...
i still coward when facing this question...
still cry to answer this quetion!!!YAY!!!!WHY????/.\
为什么他永远都是我的弱点？
我可以不要再因为他的问题而成为我的问题吗？
19年了，必要面对的都不少。。。
曾经也因为他 闹出了不可理喻的笑话，
因为他 我曾经是埋怨自己，甚至把自己推进一个死角。。。
把自己变得若无其事、装坚强。。。
很累。。。
扪心自问...当知道我的事后的人，尤其是朋友
她们是不是因为可怜我才继续跟我交朋友、时常迁就我的牛脾气？
你知道因为你 我不敢交朋友吗？
因为我不想成为人家的话柄，人家可怜的对象！！！
我真的很恨你 恨着一个犹如空气的人。。。
滚！滚出我的世界 我的人生！

我想你了，那你呢？

久别的部落格先生，
多久没和你倾述我的心情啊~
抱歉哦~
其实有很多的时候，我很想更新我的趋势，
但是就不知道为什么总是还有顾虑...

我想你了，那你呢？
这句话其实早就存在我的心里，
但我想对他说出这句话的人 永远都不会出现在我眼前...
我曾经是多么想要忘记他，
可是后来才发现我做不到，
甚至有时想起和他一起过的时刻，眼里总是有些排泄物不问自流~
为什么呢？
我一直问自己对他的那个真正感觉是什么，
喜欢？还是只是单纯地想念当时的日子？
可是就是得不到答案！
我问得不耐烦时就会责怪他，
怪他为什么当初要留下一些又美好又难忘的记忆。。
呵呵，很坏吧我~
我尝试在我的新生活里 努力地忘记掉他，
重新出发，
可是心里还是会有着他的影子，
就算找到更好的，但还是会拿他做比较~
其实他并没有什么优点，而且还挺讨人厌的，
可是心就跟着感觉走，就算是个黑掉的苹果，，你还是觉得它是新鲜的~
心里住了一个人总是很难地把他抽走，
因为就算他不再出现在我眼前，
心里却已有他的足迹~
就好像电脑存库一样，
当你删除了一样东西，
它还是存着备份。。
其实要把备份也删掉并不难，
可是.......我没有那个心....不想
算我自私吧，继续让他霸占我心里的位子，
暂时不让其他人进来~
对不起...